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i haven't been on here for a while, i was in the process of moving.
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But, basically, i wasn't "blaming" anyone for anything.  I asked a question in a community on what kind of foods i could eat with less than 200 calories in it , and they kept telling me to buy stuff.  I have no money.  I can't go buy anything.  So, thats why i was trying to move.

So next time someone reads one of my journals, and thinks they're cool on trashing me or saying that i'm doing something i'm not, don't even comment.

So for all of you who don't know me very well, I don't have any parents, no they're not dead, they just don't want me.
I'm a vegetarian, and when I ask my boyfriends mom for only vegetables, she doesn't bring me home ANYTHING.
If I asked for rice cakes, she'd make a big deal and say, "you're not fat, you don't have to watch your weight" and the only thing I want to tell her is, I don't want to end up looking like her when I'm older.

Nobody fucking cares.
I'm in the middle of nowhere and I can't get a job.
And I don't have a car.
So that means NO MONEY.
So I can't just go buy myself my own food.
I have to rely on her, and she doesn't do anything.

I have no parents to give me money, so that means, NO MONEY as well.

And I don't even want to be with my boyfriend and I'd move at any time, but....I HAVE NO WHERE TO GO.

So there.  Now you know more.

I hate it, and no matter where I go, it never ceases.
A post I posted 2 DAYS AGO, is still getting fucking feedback.
Yes, I have a problem with certain black people, because I don't approve of their lifestyle,
But I know the difference between a black person and a nig. (sorry if the fucking word offends you, and if it does, you should of read it anyway!)
But my point is, is that I am entitled to my own opinion, and didn't ask for yours in the first place.
I was simply posting a rant about bad grammar.


So pretty much lets put it this way

There is a difference between:

Black People and Niggers
White People and Whitetrash
Mexicans and Spics
And....well.  I don't have a racial slur for this one....
If you know what a Micronesian is, then you'd understand.
But they get everything free, because our country is experimenting bombs on their country.
Which is low for us, it wasn't my choice.

But why is it, that if a white person says nigger, they get jumped?
But when any other race says cracker, we can't do anything about it?
Its the dumbest thing.
I AM against the confederate flag.
And I don't approve of what happened to them in slavery,
but what most of them are becoming these days,
is really really unacceptable.
As to any other race.
Mexicans are becoming just the same.
As of some white people.
All the meth...don't even get me started on this subject.
But the black people got crack,
the Mexicans have cocaine,
and the white people have meth.
Ew to all three.
I'd rather stick to pot, and Bob Marley.

When I say nigger,
it refers to any person I don't approve of OR someone I'm just joking to.
Like me and my best friend call each other nigger.
More like Nigga.
But its because we think its hilarious.

But, to the conclusion,
maybe you should get your facts straight before you jump to conclusions.

I'm not racist against race,
I'm racist against people.


On the other hand,
I did GREAT today, only my hair extensions are killing me.
I burned 208 calories today, and only ate 20.
Woot!
I'm on my way to THIN.

Nothing...

I pick up trash, and i don't eat meat :]

i'd rather have a solar house, but not much choice right now.
i was gonna plant a tree today, but i had no money :[

this is only my second day, and i want to lose it fast.
i don't have much self control so I need a buddy to help me.
I am 140-145 and i want to be 110 or 100, thats all i want.
i am tired of feeling worthless and ugly and fat.
i can't be in SG looking like this can I?
Its horrible.
I really hate myself.


Today hasn't been so bad.
I've only drank water,
and I've smoked already,
but problem is I only have 3 fags left.
I don't have anymore money either.
I need more!
But I'm getting tired of the taste.
Camel Frost, I'm kinda just wanting regular Camels.

I need adderall.
It keeps me from eating.
And it makes me active.
So that means, more calorie burning.
Its kinda like speed I guess.
But I'd like some vitamins,
and veggies.
But my boyfriends mom doesn't buy any,
and i can't get a job, so I can't buy them myself.

Ugh, i just need help.

they are assholes who don't take care of their dogs. :[